Wednesday, January 18, 2006
the tired oneim not here trying to be all emo and all
just how im really feeling now
its really tiring being a two-faced person
its hard to be all smiley and cheerful even when i'm not
im just feeling really drained out
and honestly i am tired. very very tired.
wearing a mask is tiring indeed, but how can i take it off?
im always dragging myself to that place
and all, and now guess my only motivation is
to do well for my Os
i wanna prove to pple that i can do it
i wanna prove to myself that im not a stupid person
but on e other hand
its just hard being there. like really hard.
even voicing out my opinions can be really difficult
i can never be myself as much as i wanna be
its so overrated
its all abt popularity
im not as loud anymore
im not who i am in that place
and it feels really suffocating
i find it hard saying what i really feel to pple there
afraid they'll judge maybe?
i dont know what pple see me as
but as much as i wanna say that i dont care
but in fact, i do. somehow, someway
maybe its just me, that ive changed
and i look at things in a different perspective?
i really don't know
i cant wait to get out of this place, real fast
no ones making the effort really
as much as i wanna be enthu to help in e issue
everyones just so pessimistic abt it
urgh, whatever .
enough of my rants.
such a strange place
;
bull crap
♥ 6:50 PM